“Doll” by Fox Gibson

Fox Gibson is a freshman studying the Bachelor of Music in Jazz & Contemporary Improvisation. Though she enjoys jazz, she hopes to pursue the Performing Arts Technology degree later down the line in order to further her recording and production skills for all genres. While her primary instrument is the drumset, she writes original music on guitar and voice during her freetime, and is constantly working to further embrace singing and songwriting.

“Doll” is entirely inspired by Skaten*gs’ song “Chemical Imbalance.” The song begins with a long poem-like rant spoken with addicting diction, which explores ridiculous topics, but has an underlying political message about sex abuse in the entertainment industry. I first heard the song a few years ago, when my friend at the time praised it for all the wrong reasons. She appeared to love the aesthetics of everything wrong in the world. She found pride in sexualizing herself like a child; she romanticized pedophilia and rape. She believed that she was entirely justified because she had been sexually harassed. Though, 81% of women—according to NSVRC—experience sexual harassment. I don’t believe that 81% of women should feel comfortable sexualizing little girls for their own personal aesthetics. “Doll” details my experiences with her, as well as my experiences with the people she attracted. Since submitting this poem, I’ve rewritten it many times. This older version explores her as a false victim, while the modern one explores her as more of a product of lolita culture—that of which romanticizes the idea of being a victim. It’s an absurd way to act, but is often excused in the name of false feminism. “Doll” should reflect the movement’s absurdity.

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